It was looking dull and depressing in the morning. I dragged myself out of bed (that’s actually taking quite some effort with all the weight gain) and hopped on my usual 7.20. And of course it got delayed, since it was snowing.But with a netbook to save me from the boring and sleepy faces of the fellow passengers, my mind started wandering a little bit into the future. Actually, a lot further into the future. True, I wanted to become an engineer and true I liked what I did for a livelihood. But I believe, everyone has a life’s calling. Its that one particular thing they would want to achieve in their lifetime, that has nothing to do with a career. A career is a job you do everyday and earn money. But a life’s calling may or may not earn you money. May or may not earn you fame. But it will always be that one thing that you wish you can do. For most people, its a blur. They just carry on with their lives, lost in day to day activities. It was for me too…until I woke up today.
Today, on the train, staring into the snow, I had a glimpse of my life’s calling. Too bad I wont speak about it because I want to reveal it as I do it. Its still far off into the future for now but I definitely am going for it.

I have seen this many times before. Devastation strikes. People die…Children are left homeless and as orphans. Countries crumble…And everyone I meet is talking about it. They are feeling sorry for the poor souls out there. My mind just feels numb. Neither do they spur a reaction nor elicit a comment from me. I feel sorry too but deep within, I am actually glad it did not happen to me. I am overcome by guilt more than being sorry. Why feel sorry out in the open when you do nothing about it? Ah I know…because people feel better when they feel sorry for those deprived souls. Selfishness even then! And it is inadvertent. They cant help it.

From what I have seen, people who actually do something for those deprived souls never talk about it. They do not have the time to feel sorry, since they are busy helping them out. Their souls are not tortured like the rest of us who have this compulsion to let out our “feelings” for the miserable people.

Those are the people that feel the inner peace…